|Antonio Adams standing in front of a portrait of Raymond Thunder-Sky in the Thunder-Sky, Inc. Gallery.|
|The mural Antonio designed and executed with help from Artworks, on the side of the building where Visionaries and Voices is located.|
|A Raymond drawing Antonio "finished," in the permanent collection of the Museum of Everything in London.|
So far we've talked about eugenics, Goddard and the Kallikaks, Special Education, ADAPT, the American with Disabilities Act, Applecreek and Orient (two large and terrible institutions in Ohio that were eventually shut down), and other aspects of disability history. We've also focused on how to decolonize and deconstruct attitudes and reactions, as you enter into relationships with people with disabilities that are meant to be kind and helpful.
Often "help," in the way we approach people with disabilities, becomes a way to control and to erase and to make ourselves feel better.
I'm using "colonization" as a gateway into many ideas in class, hoping that metaphor with its contexts of Diasporas, plantations and ghettos bleeds over into the way we understand nursing homes, hospitals, day programs, special education classrooms, and other institutional settings people with disabilities so often were (and still are) consigned to. That turn from thinking of institutions and services as "charity" and "necessary" toward seeing them often as places to house and group in order to "fix" and "erase" is the hardest rhetorical and moral move to make.
“People know what they do; frequently they know why they do what they do; but what they don't know is what what they do does.” (Michel Foucault, Madness and Civilization: A History of Insanity in the Age of Reason)
Which brings me to: Antonio Adams and Raymond Thunder-Sky. Right now I'm also getting ready to write an article about Antonio and his relationship with Raymond for Raw Vision, an outsider art magazine. I've invited Antonio to come to the Disabilities Studies class, as a lecturer. The main reason I did this is that I am beginning to understand now what happened with Visionaries and Voices and me. I feel more than a little disillusioned about the whole thing. I started out trying to make my relationship with Antonio and Raymond and other artists with disabilities Bill and I met as authentic and systems-less as possible, meaning I never thought in a million years meeting up with them would have been the genesis of a day program. That was very naive, because one of the main reasons I met them was because I was a systems-worker.
In fact the whole time I did what I did for Visionaries and Voices I never saw it as constructing an institution. I saw it as a renegade enterprise in which people of all sorts, all classes and creeds and weirdnesses, combined their talents to make a big impression. That's Utopia, I know, but I didn't even understand the limits and dangers of thinking that way either. Because day to day I did whatever I could to make Visionaries and Voices secure. I wrote grants, I helped hire people, I pushed and pulled to make it have a "revenue stream" outside of the grants and donations, eventually advocating for it to be funded by Medicaid, with its very colonizing rules and regulations. But even as I stubbornly fixated on sustaining Visionaries and Voices as it grew from informal art shows to finding a studio space to hiring a studio coordinator to finding a bigger studio space and hiring more studio coordinators to finding two studio spaces and getting Medicaid involved to coming up with a Table of Organization, etcetera, etcetera., I still did not get the ramifications until it was too late. And as the number of artists involved in the effort grew from three or four to forty to fifty, and as their statuses as "artists" sharing materials and ideas became closer to "clients" sharing staff, all I thought about was: let's keep this thing going.
I hypnotized myself into believing once Visionaries and Voices was fiscally and organizationally sound, THEN the real work would begin.
What was the real work? Oddly enough, for me, the real work was ensuring that Visionaries and Voices was the opposite of a day program, the synonym of an institution. Oddly enough, it has turned into a day program, a well-run one with much the same spirit as what we all began with, but what's missing is that sense of "systems-lessness," that sense of breaking free from the structures that created the colonization of people with developmental disabilities in the first place. In other words, in Foucault's words, I knew what I was doing; frequently I knew why I did what I was doing; but what I didn't know is what what I did does.
|A poetry reading at the joint.|
|Opening night of Antonio's show, "Unrealized and Unforeseen."|
The real work for me is right now, as we try to build a gallery and a studio that is not about charity or Medicaid funding, but a serious reinvention of what "disability" and "outsider art" can mean, without the need for constant fundraising and without the tendency to label people so you can raise awareness about their labels so you can fund the programs that will help them be a part of the community.
Thunder-Sky, Inc. is the gig now -- a small, storefront gallery in Cincinnati that sponsors six exhibits a year. It's a non-profit enterprise but without a lot of frills and machinations. No telethons. No silent auctions. We incorporated in 2009, and Antonio is the Artist-in-Residence. And so far we've been able to keep it going through art sales and private donations that aren't based on the "disability" trope, but on the idea that people need an unpretentious, unofficial, beautifully unique gallery space in their midst. The shows and mission aren't based on anything except Raymond's unique life and legacy.
Antonio and Raymond were artists I met coincidentally, because I have a connection to the system that supplies services to people with developmental disabilities. I loved their work, though, not because of their diagnoses or because it had anything to do with systems, but because I simply loved their work and the way they went about making it: stonecold dedication, without a lot of help from anybody. I was adamant my connection to the system would not dictate the way I tried to help them, and yet in the end it did. I wasn't a great ally because I was focused on "helping" them in a generalized, charity-based fashion. I thought by doing this I would end up "helping" a lot of people.
Maybe I did, but in the end I kind of regret it because Utopia did not occur. A day program did.
I'm not whining. Of course, Utopia never occurs. Visionaries and Voices is a wonderful thing. But it's not the thing I intended, even though it is everything I thought it was supposed to be. Maybe that's contradictory and selfish and silly, but it's my truth. And as I try to think and rethink and theorize about how to best "help" people with disabilities now I feel like I always need to start off with a warning: try to know implicitly what you do does. Try to figure out as you try to help what that "help" means morally and ethically and culturally, so that what you're adding to the whole mix isn't yet another version of what's happened so many times before.
|A painting of Raymond by Antonio.|